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Nightmares

Augh why do i do this to myself.. I haven’t slept at all from yesterday, but my creative juices are flowing.. I needa make this i was going to try and find someone to send a request in for this but i am gonna do it myself.

Anyway! Feel free to throw request into my ask! I like to see what you guys want, and honestly i am weak in trying to make something up, but i can do it.. Just need a little time.

Warnings – Mentions of abuse, trauma, pain and suffering, panic attacks, and all right angst.

The bros s/o you struggled with a family problem, with emotional problems most of your life. From the abuse from family, to the ragging, the pain and suffering that has lead to horrible nightmares, part of you refusing to sleep just because of these nightmares. Seeing you parents face in your dreams, the things they have said and drilled into your mind, it’s hard to try and get over it but slowly.. You are doing it, slowly the nightmares have started to fade. Yet on some nights they come back full force and rattle you to the bone. Tonight, it’s one of those nights where it comes crashing down on you.

Noctis

• It was at camp that the nightmare hit you full force
• Maybe around noonish when it came
• The nightmare came around the normal downtime you all had at times, and Noctis just about dragged you into the tent for a nap.
• He wanted to get some time away from the guys to, just you and him.
• It was a peaceful nap, almost a lazy feel around the haven.
• Ignis was going over his notebook making note of supplies, and making a small list of what to get at the next town
• Prompto was playing games on his phone before swapping to his camera to clean it and half pay attention to a idle game on his screen
• Gladio was half asleep himself as he was trying to read a book in his chair by the burnt out fire pit.
• It was peaceful, not to mention the air around them was calm, the small breeze and bids.
• Until a loud scream came from inside the tent, a panicked scream with desperate sobs and a yelp from noctis.

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The Scream is what woke Noctis as well as you’re body jerking up and causing his head to fall off your chest where he rested his head. Startled awake it took Noctis a few seconds to collect himself and take notice what was going on. Blinking a few times from the sudden light from the tent being opened and the rest of the guys looking concerned before noctis looked to you.

You had a wide eyed panicked stare at the ground, breathing was heavy and hard as sweat was dripping down your face, it felt like you’re whole body was locked up in it’s panic. “Shit..” was all Noctis could mumbled before he sat up fully placing a hand on your shoulder. “y/n?…. Hey y/n?” his voice would be a little tired and sleepy as he rubbed you’re shoulder. Pulling a blanket from the mess inside of the tent he wrapped it around your shoulders pulling you closer to him slowly.

Waving a hand at the guys who held the tent open ignis gave a small nod before shooing them away to leave you and Noctis alone. Trembling in his grip he whispered to you. “Hey… it’s okay… breath, just… try to relax and breath… it’s only a nightmare, you’re doing great” he would just about drag you into his lap as he would kiss your head wrapping his arms around you keeping you as close as he could. Taking his hand he would carefully remove the tears that slid down you’re cheeks, his touch was warm and light, scared he might harm you or startle you.

It took some time but the trembling slopped and you let out a long breath before slowly turning your head to him and frowning as you’re bottom lip trembled trying to keep your emotions inside. “It’s okay… “ Noctis gave you caring words as he rubbed you’re back and arm. It was a caring soft touch he always gave you almost like he was scared you might fear his touch. Yet it something you just about craved from him. “Noctis? y/n?” ignis called from the tent flap, his voice was careful and didn’t open it scared he might startle you. “I have {you fav warm drink}… for y/n if she would like it..” “yea… put it inside? Please?”

Ignis slowly opened the flap to slide the drink inside for you, steam was coming from the tin mug Ignis placed it inside. Just, you felt a sob rip it’s way from your body the moment you seen Ignis a little, in your mind you where a mess, a ugly mess. Noct turned his attention away from Ignis hearing you’re sob and frowned a little before wrapping you up more in your blanket. “Hey… it’s just Iggy.. you’re fine, it happens… “ cleaning your cheeks you shook your head. “It’s not fine.. Noct..i..i am..” “you’re safe… you’re beautiful..caring.. Loving… perfect to me” You’re mind was quiet, blank… taking his words and holding them close you felt another sob come from you as you turned yourself to be closer to him. “They cant hurt you anymore… and if they would even dare to try..they would have to get past me.. And the guards when i am king.. I want you to be there as my [King/Queen] y/n…”

Nocts leaned back holding you close to him, careful of his feet not to knock over your drink Ignis left inside.. It would need to be warmed up later as you where finding more comfort in you’re princes arms. “I swear… i will keep you safe…. Me and the guys” he mumbled rubbing you’re back slowly taking his hand higher to run it in you’re h/l h/c locks. Feeling his fingers in your hair, made you relax even more, not to fall asleep, but to feel comforted.

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Prompto

• It was a more struggling place when you woke from the nightmare
• It was more harsh, you’re body twitched and shaked, the blood curdling scream that was torn from you
• It wasn’t the best place to have this nightmare as it was in the back seat of the regalia.
• Ignis felt his heart leap from his chest.
• Noctis was started in his half drowsy state in the front seat.
• Gladio dropped his book in surprise
• Prompt panicked.
• Pure panic
• He knew about your problems as he was a long time friend and lover.
• Knowing you from highschool with the problems, he would always have you at his home, in his arms to try and help you escape the madness that was you’re family.
• To get away from all that abuse you’re felt, the pain and suffering they did you you’re body as well as your mind.

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Ignis jumped in the seat almost slamming on the breaks from the scream that tore it’s way from your mouth. Looking back in the mirror at you he was slightly glaring until he seen you’re state, Prompto was desperately trying to grab your hands as you started to trash in the backseat. Taking Gladio by surprise as you kicked his leg from trashing. “Y/N!” prompto shouted as he turned himself in the seat to try and get you to face him.

Gladio grabbed you’re leg a little to hard as it kicked him again making your eyes dart open and the panic set in. frantically looking around you’re could hear the harmful words, feel the rough painful hands holding you down “NO! STOP!” you cried in sobs. Ignis was quick to turn the car to the side of the rode, as Prompto was desperate to get your attention. The care came to a stop as ignis turned in his seat to look at you as Prompto was calling your name, telling you it was him, to stop flailing around. Trying to get your attention and stop you from harming him or ourself. “Please… i…im sorry” you sobbed out as you’re arms started to relax.

“y/n.. Hey… it’s okay, look it’s me Prompto… hey, just.. Listen okay, i’m right here” he said softly moving his head to try and catch your eyes. It took awhile but you’re eyes locked on him with a sniffle. This wasn’t you’re first episode, it has happened a few times before with the guys around. With sobs taking over your body you reached out for Prompto clinging to him. Prompto was quick to take you into his arms as he kissed your head with small whispers that it was only a dream. The other guys glanced at each other before Gladio tapped Nocts seat in front of him. “Why don’t.. We look for a spot for camp.. It’s getting late see if there is a haven around here”

The others didn’t make a sound as they nod getting up from there seats to head out of the car and away from the two of you to let you have a small moment together and collect yourself again. “Prom… they… they” “Shhh…. It’s okay… y/n it was a nightmare, they are long gone okay?”  you body shivered from just thinking about them as he held you close. Leaning on the side of the seat he was able to turn you to lay on him as he held you. He might looked skinny and weak but he had strong arms that he kept around you in a strong grip.

It took a while of calming you down and carefully walking for you to calm down and the tears to dry up, as you’re voice was small. Prompto refused to let you go, placing small kisses on your head. He didn’t want to let you go, didn’t want you to feel alone. He hated it when you both were younger and before you left insomnia. Having to let you go, letting you go back to that horrible household the screaming and yelling the pain. Sitting up you rubbed your eyes as they felt dry from crying so much.

There was a soft crunch of shoes making Prompto turn his head quickly to see who it was. The guys came back as Ignis came to the car first. “We.. found a Haven not to far from here… would you two like to stay in the regalia?” Prompto looked down at you before you gave a small nod. “Yea..for now, we um.. We will come to camp in a bit” Ignis gave a small nod before turning away with the other two walking with them to start heading back and set up camp. For now… Prompto just wanted to hold you and keep you close to try and keep the memories and nightmares away.

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Gladio

• When it hits, it’s late at night
• It was by accident you fell asleep, well to you, Gladio was glad you finally fell asleep.
• You and Gladio did get another room for you two as the other three would share one.
• You were feeling a little clingy to Gladio after a small hunt left you with a bandaged arm. It was killing you and the small pain in your shoulder.
• Gladio was sitting in a chair playing cards with the others.
• You sat in his lap curled in a ball with a blanket over you you’re hurt shoulder pressed into him as it was nice and the added heat helped.
• It was a nice small game, the guys felt calm as it was more of a window time. Gladio was half paying attention as he was watching you
• It had been a few days from the last time you slept.
• It was nice and peaceful, well… almost.

Gladio was looking at his phone at a text from iris asking something and having small chat with him. Gladio smiled a little when she asked about you. He was going to reply, but you started to move a little. Then you jumped with a scream and crying scrambling to the floor from Gladios lap. Lucky Gladio was a little more faster and was able to grab you to stop you from hitting your head on the small table they had in the middle with cards and drinks on it . Gladios phone paid the price instead as it landed on the table with a cracking sound. Well there was a new crack on his phone, but he didnt care.

His grip was strong around you and you’re legs as he pulled you back, just you tried to push his arms away, the panic that set in your body was pure, and terrified. The tears that ran down your face. Gladio was caught off guard when you hit his shoulder hard in a panic to try and get him to let you go, you’re breathing was picked up and felt like there was much more less oxygen in the air, almost like someone was strangling you.

“Y/N!! Y/N!!’ Gladio has to shout as he moved your hands to place them in your lap. With a worried look on his face. He has felt the results of you’re nightmares, and episodes, but they seemed to get a little more harder to try and get you out of them the longer you stay awake. Gladio kept you’re hands in your lap with one of his hands as he rubbed your lower back. He was quiet and ignored the others. Noctc was confused with an eyebrow raised. Prompto was scared out of his sleepy posture and Ignis worse a worried look on his face. Ignis was the only one of the four you really opened up with, well other then Gladio who knew why you had these nightmares.

It took a moment before you could really come thou, feeling Gladios hand on your lower back you took a deep breath closing your eyes as tears fell down you’re cheeks. Starting to shake Gladio brought you closer to his chest before keeping you in his arms. “I’m going to take her back to the room for tonight…” taking you as well as his jacket and phone he left for the room across the hall from the guys. The room was dimly lit but you didn’t pay any mind to it as your face was hidden in Gladios chest.

You had his tank top in a death grip clinging to him, holding onto him like he was you’re lifeline, he was keeping you grounded and safe, shielding you away from your fears. Gladio was quiet as he walked to the bed in the room. Sitting on the hotel bed and ow it shifted under him. Gladio didn’t say anything as he sat there with you looking at you. The tears burned your eyes as you tried to muffle the cries into his chest to be hidden. “Y/N… you can cry… you don’t need to hide it… It was all a nightmare, no one is going to harm you.. Yell at you.. Scream for anything” His voice was light and gave a small rumble in his chest as he spoke. Sniffling he brought you closer to him, trying to keep you as close as he could. “Gladio…” you whispered to him looking up with e/c eyes.

With a small hum he looked down at you move strands of h/l /hc out of you’re face to touch your cheek as lightly as  he could, he was at times scared he would hurt you because of his size. Always careful in his touches and hold he held you. “It… it…” “hey… you don’t have to talk about it if you don’t want to… dont force yourself” You looked at him for a moment before the tears glossed your eyes again. “I..i was so scared Gladio” With a small cry again he held you closer as he closed his eyes. “It.. it was that night.. I..i…” Gladio was quiet letting you try and talk. He knew what you talked about. It was around the last few years with the family. You and Gladio started a relationship. He remembers it as he opened the door to the Amicitia household to find you in tears, marks and bruises all on your body, a large hoodie he gave you and it was torn on the arm. Seeing you soaked in water with only a small sling bag shivering.  

Gladio frowned thinking back, he was so worried dragging you into the house, poor iris was confused seeing you in a state, and even worse his father had seen you like that. You refused to move away from Gladios side, scared to say anything, fearful of his father if he moved to fast. It was also the night you left that cruel home, let the pain and suffering away from that hell.

Gladio was able to get his father to do something and remove you from that place, letting you stay with them, luckily you were outta school and didn’t need to worry, just… you always had a fear that you’re family was looking over your shoulder watching you, following you and ready to pounce each time you close your eyes. “Hey… y/n.. Remember what i said?” looking at him you were confused. “Um…?” it was blank in your mind as you sniffled using your palm of your hand to rub your nose and face sitting up more to lean on his shoulder looking at him. “I told you… i would be your shield to… anything that wants to harm you has to go through me first” with a small whine it formed into more tears and a sob as you wrapped your arms around his neck. crying into his shoulder and neck you cling to him. Holding you he slowly leaned back to lay with you. “I love you y/n… i always will and i am going to keep my promise in keeping you safe.”

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Ignis

• Fighting sleep you sat on the ground next to the fire at camp.
• It was a late night, the others where already inside of the tent asleep
• You and Ignis sat on a small blanket next to the fire taking in the silence and warm fire.
• Another blanket was wrapped around you both relaxing. Ignis felt himself start to get tired but he fought it.
• You tho.. You passed out on his arm holding his hand.
• Ignis was glad to see you asleep.
• Closing his eyes he relaxed listening to the fire, a soft crackle in the quiet air, well.. Almost. He felt you’re hand twitch a few times and a whine come from your lips.
• The it happened.

With a scream you jerked yourself away from Ignis falling back, startled awake you frantically looked around in a panic, Ignis jumped at the sudden movement unsure of what happened before he tried to get ahold of your arm, well that was a little to slow as you’re hand touched the hot embers in the fire pit, with another scream pulling your hand away with tears falling down your face, you started to panic, started to have memories come back mixed with the nightmare. You didn’t notice Ignis, didn’t see Gladio rush out of the tent his sword already in his hand as well as Prompto with his gun and noctis half asleep with a spear.

Ignis got to you’re side as you curled into yourself on the ground breathing heavily while sobbing. “y/n? Hey…. love, love please i need you to calm you’re breathing” Ignis said as he tried to move to see your hand. All he could get from you was a panicked sob and that you kept repeating the words you’re sorry. Ignis was frowning with pain in his eyes as he knew why you where doing this, the nightmares seemed to be gone for a while, as well as the mind problems. “y/n, i need you to try and listen okay… you’re safe, you’re at camp right now… y/n?”

Standing ht got to the other side to have your face pointed at him, well almost as you curled in. rubbing your arm a little his touch was careful and light, but warm and caring. “y/n?” he called again as you’re shaking slowly stopped. You’re breathing started to get under control as you took a shaky breath in and let it out. Looking up a little you came to see Ignis face, it was filled with worry and fear, let it also help compassion and care. “I…iggy?” you’re voice was light and fearful. He nods as he helps you uncurl yourself, pressing you’re burnt hand down you gasped and sobbed more as you held your hand close to your chest. Ignis was careful to move you as he brought you close to him. Gladio was quiet as he passed him a few motions and a bandage. “Let me see love….” leaning into him you’re hands shook as you shook your head pressing you’re face more into him.

“y/n.. Please i need to see it” placing the potions down he moved a hand to your face to carefully stroke your cheek. “Love?” shaking your hands you stretching it out a little for him to help. “Thank you… you were scared awake and panicked” his voice was light only for you to hear as he took a motion moving some of the cool liquid over your hand healing it. With a hiss of pain you frowned seeing that some of it wasnt still healed. “I-it’s.. Going to scar” you said lightly with a frown. Ignis frowned looking at you as you sniffled looking at the old scar on your hand. The memories seemed to flood our mind, so fresh from the nightmare and the scar them left in your mind

The one time you messed up making a meal, one small error that caused so much pain, the anger they had to you they slammed you’re hand on the hot stove burning the flesh of your hand. The familiar burn and the screaming running in your head. Wincing away from it and ignis hand he let you pull your hand away. “Love… you do know..you are safe now and no one can hurt you like that again” looking at him a little you wanted to sob again as you let him take your hand again to wrap the bandage around it blocking your view from t. “Love… they are long gone.. And you have us here… we will not let them get to you again” with a sniffle you leaned yourself into him as you started to cry again. Ignis sighed softly as he hugged you close. “I promise this love….” he said softly keeping you close and taking the discarded blanket from the ground to wrap you both in.

Words – 698

not gonna lie, this took me way to long, but i was bored and may have been avoiding my art stuff right now and i needed to make you all something ❤

– Queen Anarchy (im sorry if anything is misspelled, i haven’t slept in a long time)