I’m a bit emotional today. I didn’t watch the livestream, but I got the gist of it today. I saw some you guys’ posts. And as much as it sucked, it didn’t really hit home until Ray Chase tweeted this today:
I read it and just completely broke down in tears.
I’ve enjoyed many fandoms in my time, but none of them so deeply impacted my life the way FFXV has.
Yes, some have inspired and made me cry like FFXV did, but FFXV has been so much more than that for me.
This game met me in the midst of some of the worst depression I’ve ever had and hurled me headfirst into this fandom that has taught me so so much.
Taught me how to love myself. Allowed me to imagine again. Let me self ship my confidence into a place I never knew it could be. Taught me not be ashamed of my sexuality. Taught me some kinky shit I never knew I could be into lol. Taught me to shamelessly and aggressively support other women. Taught me that “other girls” are a beautiful support system and not an enemy. Taught me songs I never knew I liked. Taught me slang and fads and stupid internet stuff I had only observed from far.
Yeah, life kinda hit me headfirst after finally edging myself out of depression and has made me fall off the super active fandom bandwagon.
But I couldn’t fathom not staying deeply invested in this fandom.
There were DLC’s to look forward to after all…but no.
Ray made it real.
It’s done.
I know this fandom will stay afloat. I’m not saying goodbye. I’ll still be around.
But god. I’m so broken up right now. I feel like this fandom didn’t really get its chance, you know? So many fandoms get so many more years of life.
…maybe another fandom will come along and snatch my edges, but I dunno…
I fell in love here. I fell in love with Prompto more than I ever had with any other character. He’s so entirely precious to me. My galaxy of sunshine and bad jokes and perseverance. I fell in love with this community and you babes and this support and these dumb jokes and head canons.
I may keep myself at arms length when it comes to being fully here with you guys, but every second has been so fucking precious.
Ah. I’m a mess and I’m rambling.
I’ll still be around guys. Maybe I’ll get my head out of my ass and write some shit when my life calms down in an effort to keep this fandom’s flame alive.
Until then, I have a ton of work I have to do.
You guys….are the best. Thanks for teaching me to walk tall.
*hugs kitten* I know how you feel. Reading your post made me tear up.
This game helped me get through a rough time last year…hell it still picks me up when I’m low even now.
Prompto is the first fictional character I’ve been so invested in, so passionate about. He really blindsided me lol I did not go into this game expecting to fall so in love with a character lol
Like you I’ve grown to like things I didn’t think I would. Learned things I never would have learned. I’ve learned so much about myself. I know some people would say it’s silly to have a fictional character and a game affect you that way but it’s true.
Seeing Ray’s tweet made me sad. Made it really sink in. The VAs have been so wonderful with this community, so active.
I know real life has had you busy lately but I always enjoy seeing you pop up on my dash. You’re one of my favorite blogs. Your thirst for Prompto is just ❤️ except you say all the things I wanna say out loud about him lol I love reading your tags.
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