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I Need You (Gladio x reader)

((So uhhh I just wanna state that this my first time doing an XReader on tumblr. Anyway I was sent this prompt by @shirleyhush so this shall revolve around it aighty? Aighty.))

Prompt: “Let me hold you… no, it cant wait. It has to be now.”

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Ever since the nights became eternal and darkness wrapped the world It was hard to tell when important holidays would come, it was hard to keep track of time, and to make it worse, seasons were harsher as well.

No one would dare to come out of their homes to have a decent moment, that was long gone. You, Gladio, Prompto & Ignis left off to Hammerhead, you were one of the very few to survive their way there for safety, since rumors of daemon population decreasing around such area, you wanted to have some ‘peaceful’ shut eye.

Yet… It wasn’t any different, you risked everything, your friends’ lives, your own life, you felt guilt on your shoulders since you lead them through this dark cold hell, still; they never blamed you for it. Noctis was gone, no one knew where he went, last time he was seen by you and the rest of the crew was when you all were all heading to the crystal, but y’all took separate ways.. That’s where you knew you fucked up badly.

Life has been difficult since then, you had your friends to help you through every wave of self loathe and guilt that’s for sure.. But when it came to that special someone, Gladio was the only one who could make you forget it all with his warm, loving embraces, his deep voice that he’d soften just for you, his presence… That was it, and you so happened to need it now, yet your stubborn ass wouldn’t let it happen sooner.

Tired both emotionally and physically, those voices in your head screaming at you for even risking his life. Yet you goddamn knew he could be just fine on his own, but you needed him around you. Ignis and Prompto had decided to lose themselves into speaking of good memories with Talcott, leaving you to choose whether to join them or not. Yer stubborn ass decided to not join how lovely.

Instead you took a few steps away from all of them and other people that took refuge there, you wanted some silence, some solitude to clear your mind.. Or at least that’s how it should work right? Without realizing, you were quite far away in the dark desert with only the beautiful view of the stars above you, it was cold, silent. You chose to sit down and release a quiet sigh full of grief and rage that was about to make you explode.

Memories of all 5 of you just enjoying your journey, enjoying the stops like the Assasins festival, the Chocobo post, good times they were. Tears began to run down your cheeks silently as you stared forward with a blank expression, feeling a tight knot in your throat. Feeling you were alone, you let it out, you let it out before those daemons would wonder near and see you.

Gladiolus had followed your footprints and soon saw your depressed, hunched over shape in the distance. His instinct to protect instantly kicked in, but when it came to you drowning in bottled in grief he knew he had to approach you differently. The tall man slowly walked to you, letting his footsteps be heard, you glanced from the corner of your eye, mentally cursing for he found you in such vulnerable state.

He sat down next to you and sighed, looked at you with concern and warmth in those amber eyes of his that always captivated you. “Y/N, I know why you’re here by yourself.. You know very well it wasn’t your fault.” You kept quiet, then managed to speak quietly with a shaky voice “If only I had chosen to wait for the next vehicle.. You guys wouldn’t have gotten injured.. None of you would be hur-” Gladio interrupted your sentence, still speaking softly. “Y/N we knew we’d get hurt in the process.. We still have potions, we’re alright, we’re all together.”

You still felt the guilt on your shoulders, for it wasn’t just the 4 of you traveling, it was 4 more people as well, but they didn’t make it alive past halfway of the journey to Hammerhead. And the feeling of being responsible for the deaths of 4 people really did a number on ya, but Gladio was right, it wasn’t your fault yet there you were feeling guilty for something you barely had any involvement in. They disobeyed you and the consequences were being taken by the scourge, you tried what you could but they were dead by then.

Gladiolus offered to give you a hug, this man knows when you need one, it’s like he knew when to show up and help you up; same you knew when to show up for him. You wanted to show him you were strong, but that failed right away when you made eye contact a second time. And then you found yourself in his warm, protecting embrace, hearing his heartbeat.

“Let me hold you Y/N…” You tried to calmly protest and pull away, but his arms never ceased to let you go. He spoke softly to you, looking at you in the eye, his amber eyes seemed as if they had this small flame of hope in them “No, it can’t wait.. It has to be now.”

A few minutes of silence passed… Just enjoying each other’s company and watching the nightsky, until you broke such silence..

“Gladio..”

“Hm?”

“Please don’t ever leave me… I Need You..”

“I won’t leave you, not anymore..”

You let him keep you safe, curled up to him, and because you craved for this for a long time; you finally managed to sleep well for once in months.