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Light
flared through your bedroom window, causing you to groan and pull the
blanket above your head.

“Get
up.” Jesse’s Southern drawl filled your ears, a low chuckle emiting
from him as your pillow hit his face.

“Get
out.” You growled, sitting up and rubbing the sleep from your eyes.
You glared at the cowboy, your first friend in Overwatch.

“Angela
says you’re going to be late for breakfast.” He rolls his eyes and
holds his hands up defensively. “Sorry for tryin’ ta save yer
hide.”

You
growled once again, standing up and stretching. Jesse sat on your
bed, arms splayed above his head. You rolled your eyes, hands on your
hips. “And how am I supposed to get dressed with your ugly mug in
my bedroom?” You asked sweetly.

The
cowboy looked unconcerned. “I dunno. I’ve seen you damn near
shirtless before.” He dodged your jab with a chuckle. “Alright,
alright. Simmer down. I’ll wait outside for ya.” He stood and
pinched your cheeks before heading out of your room, a swift kick in
the ass earning a small yelp from him.

He
infuriated you. To no damn end. He was rude, he was crude, and
couldn’t ever take a hint.

But
you were so helplessly in
love with him. You
hated yourself for it.

You
sat on the bed, your clothes in hand. You thought back to when you
had confessed your feelings to him; a fancy dinner at his favourite
steakhouse, a moonlit walk along the docks of the water where he
liked to fish occasionally. You dressed fancy, all done up for what
you thought would be a special evening.

But
when you finally confessed your feelings, you were greeted by an
uncomfortable stare and an awkward laugh. At first he asked if you
were joking; you had to be, right? The look of guilt on his face as
you turned away, barely managing to hide your tears, was etched
forever into your mind. Since that night, you two were still close
and able to pretend like nothing happened, but the spark between the
two of you remained.

But
you ignored it. Never talked again about your true feelings for the
cowboy.

He
tried to set you up with his friends. Each and every person you
refused, claiming that they weren’t your type or something of the
sort.  

But
still he tried, knowing that you still held feelings for him. He felt
guilty about not reciprocating your feelings, but he knew it would be
worse to agree to date you and not having feelings for you.

“Almost
done?” He called from outside, leaning against the doorway. You
opened the door with a scowl, crossing your arms.

“You’re
so impatient.” You walked past him to the dining hall, m0st of
Overwatch already seated. A select few were missing, due to being on
missions. Angela smiled at you and Jesse as you sat down, asking how
you slept and what you had planned for the day. You answered her
questions, yawning slightly. You ate mostly in silence, nodding every
once in a while when a question was directed at you. People began to
leave the table to start their days, and Jesse nudged you.

“What
about Genji?”

You
rolled your eyes, smoothing your hands on your pants. “Fine. Genji
is pretty nice.”

Jesse
was surprised that you had agreed, but he was thrilled either way. He
winked at you. “Great! I’ll talk to him and see if I can hook the
two of you up.”

You
nodded, taking your plate to the sink. You couldn’t help but wonder
if Genji and you would make a good couple, but you figured it
wouldn’t hurt to try. Jesse would never feel the same way about you,
so there was no point in holding out for something to happen between
the two of you. You came back and sat down with Jesse once again, who
was on his second plate of breakfast. “What does Genji like?”

Jesse
paused, considering your question. “Well, he likes that anime
stuff. And he likes swords. And meditating.” He seemed to be
struggling for things that his friend liked. “And, uh, I think he
mentioned once that he liked girls?”

You
rolled your eyes, exasperated. “I don’t know why I bothered to ask
you. You’re thick as a stump.”

“That’s
what the ladies say.”

You
stood and pushed in your chair. “You’re disgusting.” You didn’t
wait for his reply, heading back to your room. You closed and locked
the door behind you, opening your wardrobe. Inside were mostly
training clothes; nothing nice or fancy to wear on a date. You
sighed, wondering Angela or Fareeha would lend you some of their
clothes. You shook your head, deciding to go out shopping for a nice
dress. You grabbed your bag and headed out of your room, bumping into
Jesse once again. “Can’t you leave me alone?” You grumbled but
didn’t protest any further when Jesse began to walk beside you.

“Nah.
It’s fun to bother you.” He grinned. “Where ya goin’?”

“I’m
going out.”

“Where?
Why?”

“If
you must know,” You glared at him. “I’m going shopping. I.. I
want to get some nice clothes for the date.”

Jesse
raised an eyebrow at you. “Is that so?”

“yes,
that’s so.”

“I’ll
go with ya, then. Lord knows you could use the help.” He dodged the
punch you aimed at him, laughing. “I’m kiddin’. It’s just nice to
have a second opinion, you know?”

You
grumbled once again but agreed.

–
– –

The
two of you arrived in Numbani, a small list in your hand of the
things you needed to prepare for your date.  

“I
think I’m going to get a small haircut.” You told Jesse, running
your hands through your hair. “My hair is kind of split at the end.
It could use a clean up.”

“Why
not dye it? I heard Genji likes green.” Jesse joked, earning an eye
roll from you.

“I’m
not dyeing my hair, and especially not green.” You responded in
annoyance, heading into the hair salon.

“You
don’t have to sit with me.” You told Jesse, know he would much
rather get a beer than spend however long your haircut would take
with you.

Jesse
arrived back just in time. You turned and smiled at him when we came
up behind you. “What do you think?” You asked, your hair cut and
neatly styled.

“It
looks nice. Genji’ll love it.” He grinned, offering you his arm.
“Shall we get you some new clothes to match your new hair?”

You
nodded, taking his arm with a small laugh. “We shall, cowboy. Pick
me out an outfit that will knock Genji off his feet!”

You
two walked to the nearby clothing shop. Immediately you flocked to
the racks of clothes, asking Jesse his opinion on what you should
wear. The two of you decided on semi-formal, and began to look for a
cute dress that would be perfect for your date. You tried on dress
after dress, Jesse either giving you the thumbs up or thumbs down.
After and hour of looking, you sighed and sat beside him glumly.

“You
know,” Jesse started, looking at you. “You could always just wear
nothin’. Men love nothin’.” He grinned, but seeing your sour look
he sighed. “Just tryin’ to lighten the mood. I’m sure you’ll look
fine in anything you wear. Besides, it’s just Genji.”

“You
don’t date much, do you?”

You
huffed, slightly annoyed with yourself. Jesse wrapped an arm around
you, rubbing your shoulders. “Hey. I know it’s frustrating, but
it’ll be fine. Don’t stress. We’ll find ya the perfect dress.”

You
nodded and resumed your search. Luckily the store you were in was
huge and had a large selection. Just as you were about to give up
hope, Jesse found a cute dress that was your favourite colour. You
beamed and instantly went to try it on. It was the perfect size,
comfortable and pretty cute as well. You exited the changing room
with it on, doing a small twirl for Jesse. “Well? How does it
look?”

Jesse
gave you the thumbs up with a smug grin. “Looks great on ya,
darlin’. Aren’t you glad that I tagged along?”

You
rolled your eyes and went back into the changing room. “I’m sure I
would have found it eventually.”

“Sure
you would have.”

You
got dressed and grabbed the dress, smiling. You couldn’t help but
feel a little giddy as your date drew closer. “Let’s go.” You
said to Jesse as you left, going to the counter to pay for the dress.
You two walked through the streets of Numbani to head back to base.

“Excited?”
Jesse asked, looking down at you.

You
nodded, a small blush dusting your cheeks. “I.. I am, actually. I
haven’t been on a date in a while and I don’t want to screw this one
up, you know?”

Jesse
nodded. “Yeah I understand. Genji’s a great guy. I bet he’s got
somethin’ fun planned, too.”

“What
time does the date start, by the way? You never told me.”

“Oh.
It starts at 6:30.”

You
stopped and stared at him. “6:30?”

“Yeah.”

“That’s
two hours away, Jesse.”

“Yes?
You’ve got plenty of time. Your hair is done and you have something
to wear.”

“Ugh!”
You didn’t speak to him the entire way back to base.

–
– –

You
met Genji just outside of base, smiling at him. You couldn’t see the
smile on his own face due to his mask, but you knew it was there. He
wore a crisp black suit with a neon green tie.

“You
look amazing, Y/N.” He breathed, offering you his arm. You took it
with a small blush.

“Thank
you, Genji.”

You
gave a small wave to Jesse as you two boarded the plane. Genji hadn’t
told you where you two were going yet, wanting to surprise you. Jesse
tipped his hat to you and watched you leave with Genji.

“You
made a mistake letting her go, Jesse McCree.”

Jesse
turned at the voice, the smile gone. Ana leaned against the wall,
looking amused.

“Poor
girl has been fawning over you all this time and the minute she gets
a date you start to have feelings for her?”

“Don’t
do that.” Jesse growled. “Don’t.. Don’t read me like I’m some
book.” He watched the plane in the distance, knowing that Genji
would take good care of you. “She.. She’ll be happier with him. It
wouldn’t be fair of me to tell her now that I like her too.”

“No.”
Ana agreed. “It wouldn’t be fair. You had long enough to tell her.
You shouldn’t have been so indecisive.”

“I’m
not going to tell her.” He murmured, kicking at the dirt. “She’s
finally happy. Finally over me. I just wish I had felt these feelings
before.”

“It
took you the span of one day to realize that you loved her?”

“We..
Hadn’t really spent too much quality time like that together before.”
He explained. “We had been on missions, spent time around base
together, gone to the bar and stuff like that, but.. She looked so
carefree. Excited. Happy.” He shoved his hands into his pockets and
gave Ana a roguish smile. “It doesn’t matter now. She’s happy and
that’s what is important to me. I’ll just have to suck it up. Maybe
next time I won’t be so stupid and let a good thing go.”

Ana
gave him a warm smile, patting his cheek.

“You
say that now, but when it comes down to it, you boys will always make
the same mistake. Over and Over.”

Jesse
rolled his eyes, a small smile on his face. “I know. But a boy can
hope, can’t he?”

He
walked back into base with her, a small sadness blooming in his
chest. He pushed it down, refusing to feel sad about your happiness.

As
long as you were happy, he was happy too.

For some reason, I envisioned Ana being part of this story even if I didn’t mention her – how funny she ended up being a part of it anyway! Must be that motherly ‘I told you, you dumb shit’ aura she gives off :’D What a bittersweet fic – thank you again for taking my commission!